Expectations

EXPECTATIONS:In the case of uncertainty, expectation is what is considered the most likely to happen. An expectation, which is a belief that is centred on the future, may or may not be realistic. A less advantageous result gives rise to the emotion of disappointment. If something happens that is not at all expected it is a surprise. An expectation about the behavior or performance of another person, expressed to that person, may have the nature of a strong request, or an order. (WIKIPEDIA) 

I believe this is my biggest wall I need to overcome. The more and more I think about my life and about how things were and how they ARE.....I can only come down to this: I need to stop expecting so many things. This causes so many negative thoughts which then cause so many hurtful emotions. I have the tendency to expect so much and when it does not play out the way I "plan" aka expect then it screws everything up. I expect people to live up to their word. I expect people to show up on time. I expect people to do their job. I expect that I people will act a certain way, or say certain things. I realize that when this does not happen, it ruins my whole day/night/week/month whatever it is. I always thought that it was easy to just do what you say or act the way you want to be treated.  I am not sure this will work in every situation. I have lived my whole life on a schedule (or at least a schedule in my head) In college I would make sure I was up at a certain time, figure out my daily schedule: what time lunch was, what time I needed to be home, what time I needed to start my homework, what time I should eat my dinner etc, you get the picture. If my daily schedule was screwed up.....that was it. If I was expecting someone to call like they always did, and then they didn't. I started to worry, going through so many different thoughts etc. So, now here I am at the age of 25 still disappointed when things don't go the way I expect them to. I guess, I should just stop expecting so much and it will be a "surprise" and well, I don't get so upset, at least I hope.